I struggle with pornography and masturbation.
There...I got it out there. That was the hard part. “Why on
earth are you telling me this?” you may ask.
Well, to be honest, it’s not because I want to, but rather because, as I
prayed this morning, I strongly felt the Lord telling me that it was time to be
completely candid about my struggle.
You see, it’s something that I’ve struggled with off and on
since around 8th grade, and I’m sick of it. It’s not because I haven’t tried to beat
it. Believe me, I have. I’ve downloaded accountability programs on my
computer and on my phone. I have an
accountability partner, etc. And while
those things are great and have really helped, when it comes down to it,
despite my guards, sin has always found a way, but today I'm done giving it one.
They say the first step to getting over a problem is to
admit that you have it. I think that the
reason for this is because you can no longer hide it by putting up a
facade. John 3:19 says. “This is the
verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead
of light because their deeds were evil” (NIV).
Darkness is the reason most crimes take place at night. If they were committed in
broad daylight, there would be no cover, nowhere to hide. So, I, Caleb Julin, hereby remove the
darkness from my life and flood it with the light of God that illuminates all
faults. I am not perfect and certainly
don’t have everything together.
